If He Only Knew...

Rawlins Debbi

His secretary had done everything else for him, including getting his coffee and lunch and dry cleaning. So yes, every trip by her desk had been designed to torment and tease. Yet, he’d never taken the next step.

At first, she’d thought it was because they worked together, but the company had no policy about that. She’d found out that a couple of years ago, Cody had dated an attorney who’d since gone on to another firm. So the precedent had existed.

She simply hadn’t met his standards.

The waitress brought his scotch, and he slipped her some money and told her to keep the change. The tip was a large one judging by the younger woman’s eyes, but she didn’t get a smile with it. Had he ever smiled in his life? Not the kind you gave the camera, or what was expected by a client, but a real spontaneous smile?

He adjusted his red silk tie and for a crazy second she thought he might loosen the knot. “You’re a strange one, Sara Wells.”

She blinked at him, confused. “Me? Why am I strange?”

“I can’t put my finger on it, but something’s…off.”

“Pardon me?”

He chuckled, and at the odd sound coming from his mouth she almost slid off her chair. “I’ve known a lot of legal secretaries in my day, and none of them were like you.”

“What were you expecting?”

He shook his head. “So illusive…” he said, but more to himself than her.

“Is that why you came tonight? For one last chance to get your answers?” she asked.

“Maybe. But mostly I came to say goodbye.”

Her heart skidded at the quietness of his voice. “That happy to be rid of me, huh?”

His expression tightened. “No.”

Uncomfortable, Sara glanced around. Dakota and Tony had sat at another table and they, along with everyone else from the office, seemed to be staring in Sara’s direction.

This was nuts. None of this mattered. Not his voice, not his eyes, not even the reason that she dreamt about him night after night. Tomorrow she’d be gone.

She checked her watch, but it didn’t matter what time it was. “I really need to get going. I have so much packing to do yet.”

He didn’t hide his surprise. “It’s early.”

“So is my flight tomorrow.” She got up and grabbed her purse from where she’d left it on the chair beside her. “I’d better go say goodbye to Dakota and Tony.”

“Wait.”

She took a deep breath and turned back to him. The desire in his eyes totally unsettled her.

“You’ll be coming back to New York sometime, won’t you?”

“I doubt it.”

“I see.” He paused. “Well, you did a fine job for us. Thank you.”

Absurdly disappointed, she smiled. “That’s what you paid me for.”

He nodded slowly, looking as if he had more to say.

“Goodbye, Mr. Shea.”

Without looking back, she hurried over to Dakota, the one person in New York she’d truly miss. “Hey, Tony,” she said, giving his shoulder a squeeze. “Good to see you.”

“I don’t blame you for ditching my brother,” Dakota said, laughing, as Tony got to his feet. “Here, take my chair,” he said. “I’ll get another one.”

“No.” Sara shook her head and waved Tony back to his seat. “I have to go.”

Dakota’s eyebrows went up. “So soon?” And then her gaze drew to Cody. “Did he—?”

“I have an early flight. That’s all.” Sara smiled. It wasn’t as if she’d be missed. She hadn’t clicked with anyone other than Dakota. Not that Sara didn’t appreciate people stopping by, but she also knew many of them frequented the bar on Fridays anyway. “I’ll call you sometime, okay?”

“I’m counting on it.” Dakota stood and gave her a warm hug. So did Tony. They were great together. Opposites in so many ways. And yet, they made it work. Probably because Dakota, unlike her brother, had taken the time to get to know him, just as she had gotten to know Sara, even though she was just a temporary secretary.

“Okay, I have to go before I start crying like an idiot.” Unexpectedly, the tears had started to burn the back of her eyes, which was stupid because she’d known from the beginning she would be leaving now. Life here had gotten so much more complicated than she’d ever dreamed.

She briefly waved to everyone scattered around the bar, careful not to look at Cody, then rushed to the door. Her heated cheeks welcomed the crisp air and she didn’t care that she had no coat, just her tweed suit jacket.

Two cabs on the corner both had passengers and no others were in sight, so she started walking toward Lexington. The light turned red and she slowed down, wrapping her arms around herself. A huge chapter in her life had just ended. An unsatisfying chapter. Not just because being normal hadn’t been all she’d dreamed it would be, but mostly because of Cody.

“Sara…wait.”

Had she imagined his voice? She looked over her shoulder. Cody hurried toward her, his shoulders hunched against the chill, his hands in his pockets. She couldn’t have moved if she’d wanted to. His gaze held her rooted to the spot even as pedestrians swirled around her.

He caught up with her and, taking her by the arm, steered her out of the way toward the bank that took up most of the block. Partially sheltered from the sharp wind that whipped through the canyon of high-rises, she shrunk closer to the gray brick building as she tamped down her foolish hope.

“Did I forget something?” she asked, breathless, annoyed that his face was in shadow.

“No, I did.” He pulled a small Tiffany box out of his pants’ pocket and held it out to her.

“What is it?”