My way. A journey through life from Johannesburg to Cape Town
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I bow in repentance to the Virgin above,
While you clasped my heart in your claws with false love.
A tear powerless falls down my cheek’s pale line,
My heart surrendered, begging to forget in time.
Forget that paths can exist between every word,
Forgive, and believe in life and love restored.
Forget selfish pride, like a monk in his prayer,
Exalting those who dare to defy despair.
Winter has passed, and with it, the pain
That burned through my heart like an endless refrain.
Farewell, yet I won’t say, “I forgive,”
For my sorrow departs as long as I live.
Winter’s cold steps, sharp and unkind,
Tread the streets and pierce the mind.
Farewell, yet I won’t say, “I forgive,”
But my heart breathes once more, seeking strength to relive.
Words, words—boundless creations they be,
Without pain or sweetness, words cannot be free.
Gone is the time when words inspired our way,
Like Danko’s flame leading through disarray.
No shame in his courage, no lie in his prose,
No envy, no sloth to trample others’ woes.
Bitter words of sorrow, borne by hands not your own,
Are for those who toil, who shape life from stone.
For when night and day are consumed by your fire,
To craft, to create, to love and aspire,
To carve just a moment where the heart’s aflame,
Where the soul shines through eyes and the world feels the same.
Spring has arrived, and with it, a joy,
That burns through my heart like love’s envoy.
Farewell, but now I’ll say, “I forgive,”
For my love moves forward, learning to live.
In my life, words have been both weapon and shield, but with Konstantin, they became something far greater – a battlefield. Each exchange was a masterclass in precision and intent, where his unyielding determination collided with my equally steadfast resolve.
Every conversation with him was a duel of wills. He sought to breach the walls I had so meticulously built, to strip away the professional veneer I wore like armour. His words were carefully chosen, designed to provoke, to challenge, and to uncover the truths I held beneath my composed exterior. But I was no stranger to such games. I fortified my walls further, strengthened by professionalism, detachment, and an innate instinct to guard my independence.
Ours was no ordinary dynamic. It was a contest of fire and strength – a duel between the lion and the panther. Every encounter tested the limits of our control, pushing us to the brink of our endurance. Yet the ultimate question remained unanswered: whose resolve would break first? And at what cost? For in this game, the stakes were not merely ambition, but the fragile sanctity of unbroken hearts and lives.
THE CALL THAT CHANGED EVERYTHING
The call came unexpectedly, its tone firm yet imbued with unmistakable purpose.
“Eugenie,” Konstantin began, his voice smooth and commanding, each word delivered with intention. “I shall be away for a few days. Upon my return, I wish for us to meet. Tell me – what cuisine do you prefer?”
There was no preamble, no courtesies – only the quiet assurance of a man accustomed to shaping outcomes. His audacity was striking, but I refused to be unbalanced. After a brief pause, I replied, “Russian, naturally. It is impossible to forget the comforts of home. But I would prefer to meet in the office. We can arrange the time now.”
“Don’t tell me you skip lunch,” he countered, his tone carrying a faint trace of amusement. “Excellent. Friday, one o’clock.”
Before I could respond, the line went silent. His words hung in the air – not brusque, but undeniably resolute. It was not arrogance but a deliberate challenge, designed to test the strength of my resolve and to chip away at the fortress of my professionalism.
The hours of Friday slipped by, consumed by the unrelenting demands of work. His request faded into the background until, at precisely one o’clock, the phone rang again.
“Eugenie,” he said, his voice calm but laced with a faint edge of amusement. “Where are you?”
“At work,” I replied, glancing at the clock, a flicker of unease passing through me.
“We agreed on one,” he reminded me, his tone steady yet quietly insistent. “I have been waiting.”
“We did not agree where,” I began, though as I spoke, I felt the inner turmoil rising – a battle between opposing instincts.
One voice urged me to rise to the occasion, to seize the opportunity to prove myself as a leader capable of guiding his vision. The other voice, more stubborn, spoke from a place of defiance – the voice of a woman determined to maintain her independence, unwilling to be drawn into his calculated game. Conversations with Konstantin always left me in this duality, torn between the drive to excel and the resolve to guard my autonomy.
“Eugenie,” he said again, cutting through my hesitation. His tone was calm, yet carried an unyielding clarity. “I do not have unlimited time. This discussion is about my project, one which requires someone I can trust. I do not wish for our conversation to be overheard by my company’s security. Will you come, or must I send someone to fetch you?”
A strange feeling settled over me – a quiet certainty that this was a moment requiring trust, a step that could not be delayed.
“I will come,” I said at last, conceding not to him, but to the voice within me that recognised this as a crossroads.