Womb Bloom
Шрифт:
The arrival of a third
Recovering after childbirth
Spiral of development
The Russian banya or Temaskal
Collecting and sharing – two characters of woman
Woman’s breast
Exercises for after birth
Healing herbs for recovery after childbirth
Afterword
So, let the magic begin… The time has come to take a look into the very centre of your womanliness!
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Has it really happened to me? I’m pregnant, YES! YES! YES! It’s you! Say these words again and again! You are pregnant! Get in touch with yourself, listen to yourself, flow with the Universe.
Many women think back on their pregnancy as the best moment in their life; as a holy, pure time when cosmic knowledge enters a woman directly.
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Everything had lost its meaning… All my previous relationships, romances, men, situations … Everything had lost its importance; I just looked on with a smile on my face as the embers of the past finished burning in my hearth of life.
My life had changed. It had changed forever. The course of fate had gone down such a long-awaited, desired and authentic path…
Before.
Three years ago I was lucky to meet an interesting character who changed my life, and I his… He came to Russia to present his new book. Interestingly enough, our meeting took place in a place of power in Moscow – at the Vasiliy Blazhenny catherdral in the very heart of the megapolis.
This meeting was a lucky coincidence and I used this chance to get to know him.
Juan was standing in a queue together with his Russian publisher at the entrance to the cathedral. He was dressed in summer clothes despite it already being the start of November. The sight of him woke my body up straight away and took away the feeling of chronic sleep deficiency.
Usually I slept until midday. But not this time… I jumped out of bed at 8am and flew to meet him, pushed on by the winds of change.
Juan’s cap was almost covering his eyes. When we got closer to each other to say, “Hello!” he slightly raised the peak of his cap. I took the opportunity to dive under it with my glance.
That second my eyes were pierced by the glitter of black diamond – a clear gaze that had the power to turn everything into ashes. It was impossible to hide from him. Juan’s eyes bored holes through one’s body leaving no place for lies or self-deceit. Our friendship had begun.
My former boyfriend and I invited Juan to stay at our place while he was in Moscow. He complied amicably. The time we spent with him was unforgettable; intensive, complete and filled with a child-like happiness!
But the main thing was that during the 2 weeks that he lived with us he magically managed to change my relationship to development as a couple, pregnancy, motherhood and the concept of ‘woman’.
One day Juan called me over to his room and asked what turned out to be a tricky question: ‘”Do you want a child?” His magic eyes blazed up once again with piercing sparks. My eyes became shifty, my mouth turned to stone, my neck and shoulders stiffened up. I felt for the first time that I couldn’t give the answer I always gave in such cases.
Juan looked into my centre and nodded his head: “Yes, you want it…I can see you”. This was a revelation. I panicked because I couldn’t struggle any longer and lie to myself and pretend that everything was alright.
That moment was the start of my return to myself, my heart and what I really want in this life.
Choosing a man
Women, how easily seduced we are by men who hide their indecisiveness and irresponsibility behind quotes from ‘clever’ books. We are led down the garden path by their stories, which rob us of our feminine happiness, power, and make us suffer day in day out and busy ourselves with exhausting soul searching.
My ex-boyfriend put it into my head that children are an unnecessary burden, that we have other, ‘higher’ aims in life and that children are the lot of ‘normal’ people. These kind of men want to take all a woman’s maternal energy and are not prepared to share it with anyone else.
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I asked myself whether I was happy with this person. Whether I was happy, not anyone else happy for me! I realized that during our 3 years together I was in a constant state of war and had depleted my resources. I’d got much thinner, my face had become drawn and my breasts had got smaller as if they were hiding in my chest. There are men who smoke their woman like a cigarette. They dry her out, pumping out all her resources. And when the cigarette finishes they just put out the butt in the ash tray. We women are resilient and recover as soon as some extra energy appears. But with such a man it becomes much more difficult to keep afloat when he is trying to drown you all the time.
There are other men who make a lot of effort and care for their woman like for a wonderful flower. And then she blossoms and her breast-buds bloom and give out an aroma that brings joy to the gardener. More about this in A Woman’s breast section.
Woman is the earth and man is the seeds which he sows on her. What he fills her with will flourish. The qualities that he puts into her will be those that define her. What seeds do you want to sow in your ‘earth’? What do you want to grow in her?
Respect between partners
Respect is the stumbling block in all relationships. It is impossible to create harmonious projects without it, never mind creating a baby.
My mentor don Margarito used to say: “Respeto a todos!” – (I respect everyone!)
When two people live in mutual respect, respect continues to multiply on both sides.
When you respect yourself, you respect your partner and people around you also respect you both. And when people respect you, all your projects grow as do you yourselves. By raising up your loved one, you raise yourselves up. And vice versa.
A relationship can be built over many years and completely destroyed in a second when respect is lost. Juan told me that one evening he was eating in a restaurant with his girlfriend when he suddenly caught her look of disgust directed at him. At that very moment he realized that the relationship had come to an end. One glance was enough to end everything.
If you catch yourselves looking at other men or women as potential partners while walking outside with your loved one, this can be called the beginning of the end. It means that you haven’t yet chosen decisively and are still on the lookout. And this process can be long-drawn-out.